Yule time greetings

Today is a very important day for my son and I. It is also the shortest day of the year where the darkness is left behind and light is called upon. It is very symbolic of today where I hope today will mark the end of the darkness of the relationship with my son's father. I have to believe that light will prevail. Faith is an amazing thing. It can be tried and tried again until solid, like forged metal. Goodness knows that I have been struck enough times to be solid. In honour of this day, I did a little "prayer" last night and then slept pretty well considering everything that is going on.

This brings me to two things: what to call my intention, prayer, rit or incantation. Maybe it is all the above. Each word has its own meaning and implications. Prayer is very Christian but at the same time is is accurate; for I pray for a positive outcome. It is a rit in which I called upon my spiritual guardians to listen to my prayer. It is a rit as I added an element of tools used in the worship (I sit directly in front of my fireplace, even made more appropriate as it is Yule). I did use incantations to express my needs. I also sang and opened my heart.

This morning I also thought of a way to "call" at the beginning of talking with the spirit world. Next time I will try it:
I call the four corners
The four elements
and the four energetic bodies

Pretty neat? I look forward to trying it next time.

I wish you all a happy and well Winter Solstice!

New Beginnings

Years ago, I felt like I lost a piece of myself; that the spiritual side of me was simply severed one day. Since then, I have moved back to where I felt the most spiritually unsupported and had to find myself again. After a few years of living here, it became more comfortable and new communities have developed. It is more acceptable but I still feel lost; so the lack of acceptance must not have been a driving factor. I have been told that it has something to do with a past life. I haven't the resources or means at the moment to really explore that in a spiritual journey. But for the moment, I have realized that I don't need to fully understand it right now. Perhaps that I even have a lot of work to do first before being ready to understand. So... tonight I reconnected.
This re-connection has been spurred by events in my life requiring a lot of love, support, strength and courage. I know on a daily basis that I am being watched over and protected by loved ones. Some days it is enough but others, it is not. It is also necessary for me to find tools of my own means and to give thanks for that protection. There is a book that I bought many years ago on Earth Magic that I connected to instantly. I picked it up again a few times over the years, even a few weeks ago. Tonight, I knew I needed it and used to call protection prayers. I felt something come into place within me tonight. This is a new beginning.